Its The Little Things

When I went to UWMilwaukee, my life seemed to flow from lesson to lesson. My whole life centered around two things. First was the practice room. I spent hours upon hours in there trying to understand why on earth I had to be an amazing saxophone player to conduct a high school band. I even remember leaving a coffee maker in my locker at the music building to help me stay up. The second thing that my life centered around was blowing off steam with my friends. Depending on the group of friends this could mean a different social activity...but that's for another blog.

Since coming to Minnesota it seems that my life flows not from lesson to lesson, but rather from gigantic project to gigantic project. If its not one thing its another. Student Service Fees applications, Hillel board meetings, Fraternity executive board meetins, planning frat and hillel events, it never seems to end. One project invariably leads to another and on top of that all my classes get harder and harder.

The odd part of the situation is, I don't seem to ever sweat the large projects. They always seem to get done regardless of the situation. There may be a few bumps, but they always happen. Lately I've been sweating the small stuff. This is the stuff that I should just let roll off, but for some reason I can't seem to let it go. For instance it took over a week and a half for me to get to doing my dishes...the damn dishes. Why couldn't I find ten minutes to just wash the dishes? My apartment has been a mess ever since break finished, why don't I clean it? I have not idea why I've taken such an apathetic attitude toward the living of my actual life. Why does all this small shit never get done when all of the large stuff does?