Closing one out...

Here I sit deep in thought...

What am I contemplating...

If my life was a book, there wouldn't be too much to it at this point. Sure there are some high points and some low points, but I'm young. The book isn't that long. There is enough for there to be some chapters which have ended.

Right now I'm in the process of closing a chapter of my life...

From the age of 8 years old, Olin Sang Ruby Union Institute was my summer home. It was more than just a summer camp for me. It was a place for me to be who I really was. My life floated from summer to summer. I couldn't wait to get back to that magical place with all its memories and wonderful times. So much of my life happened on the grounds of that camp. I really found myself and made friends which certainly have stood the test of time. I even went back and became a counselor to give younger kids the same experience I had.

I love OSRUI and last summer I made an incredibly difficult decision not to go back. After thirteen straight summers I chose to break and try to find something new. I had an amazing summer in DC and probably found where I'm going to end up for the rest of my life. This year when it came time to figure out my summer plans, I once again applied to OSRUI to be a counselor, but I've made a decision to close that chapter of my life. Of course I'm sad, but its time to let go and write the last word.
So...
Shalom Union Institute Shalom. I'll miss you, but I'll always have my memories.

Sometimes you think chapters are closed...

On February 13th 2004 I made a decision to close a chapter of my life in two ways. That was the day that two very significant decisions were made. First I decided that I would apply for transfer from UWMilwaukee. I didn't know where to, but I knew it was time to leave. The second decision was to break up with my girlfriend from the time.

Ellie was my first real love. There is no way to get around it. Things were amazing between the two of us until I went to Israel and fell in love with another...Eretz Yisrael. As soon as I returned from my Birthright trip, my life was changed. I knew I was kidding myself as a music major and I knew that Milwaukee wasn't for me. When I explained this all to Ellie, her reaction told me that it wasn't meant to be. It was not an easy decision to make nor was it easy on either of us. She and I stopped talking shortly after the breakup. I don't think we spoke more than a few sentences to one another in almost two years until...

On Tuesday night she IMed me out of the blue. I was completely unprepared to deal with the situation. I thought I had closed that chapter of my life. It took me a long time to get over her. She wants to know why it all happened.

Sometimes the chapters of your life aren't as closed as you think they are.