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Some people I know tell me I'm having a great semester. They say that my semester must be great if I'm hooking up with all those girls. I've become something I didn't want to be. I'm not sure how to describe what I've become, but I've hurt people who I didn't mean to hurt. I'm not sure there's any way to fix what I've done, but for the first time since freshman year I have a serious regret in my life.

I hurt someone who cared about me and for that I am sorry, but there's no way to go back. I as a person shouldn't have done it for the obvious reason: its wrong. However, I as who I am shouldn't have done it because its happened to me enough times. From cheating girls to being the rebound, I've been hurt enough times to know how bad it feels. Well it feels like shit on the other side too. I feel like an asshole which is basically what I am at this point.

I'm not sure if the person I hurt will ever read this, but I'm sorry that I hurt you. I know that its not enough, but its all I got. You say I'm a big talker, and maybe I am, but talk is all I got. There's really no action at this point. I deserve what I get, whatever that may be. I'm probably too much of a coward to even call you, but who knows I might grow a pair and apologize. I know that my confusing life is not an excuse for anything that I did, but its certainly a contributing factor in the equation. Not that I actually understand the equation in anyway.

From a distance, one of my friends would probably say: Harry's just having fun. I'm not entirely convinced that I'm having as much fun as everyone thinks I'm having.