The eve of something...

Tomorrow morning at 8:30 am I will report to Room 31 of Rapson Hall. Once there I will be thumbprinted and then I will take one of the most difficult tests of my life. I've been preparing for this test since May, but still there's a nagging sense of being unprepared. I know my logical reasoning question types down cold. I can tell you which kind of logic games I'll be better at (hybrid games by the way.) I even know that unlike most of my prep class I will finish a reading comprehension section with time to spare. So why the nagging feeling? Its more that I need the answer to the question: What's next?

Pledges and my life is my own again

So today was the day. I inducted my first pledge class as the president, and my life is once again mine. I have free time again. Its very nice. I'm caught up on reading and even a bit ahead in some classes. I'm just hoping that now I can figure out my personal life.

But that leads me to think...

What if I really don't actually have a personal life? What if my whole life is simply focused on the goals which I've set for myself. What if I'm actually nothing more than school, work, and frat. Every day school...work...frat...repeat. Every day. Scary.

As scary as it is, I'm in a serious rut and I'm only 3 weeks into school. Craziness. I'm really looking forward to this weekend in Chicago. I know its mostly for Rosh Hashana, but it'll be good to have some perspective. While I'm happy for all the amazing people I know here and my brotherhood, nothing substitues for blood family. It'll be good to see my nephews and my sister.

L'shana Tova!